only now i know...

that people don't like me being too straightforward
that i say the wrong thing at the wrong place & wrong time
that at times i say things without passing through my size-of-a-pea brain
that people around me are directly/indirectly offended by my comments
that it will be good if i shut up once in a while
that not everyone can accept critics with grace like eve chiah
that not everyone is as crazy and easy going as my disted a-level monkeys
that some friends backstabs you behind
that some friends care and love me (you know who you guys are)
that it feels like an idiot to reason with someone who is as stubborn as a bull
that it feels like a jackass when your friend doesn't appreciate your advise
that i must be more independent and survive on my own
that i shouldn't trust people easily
that i shouldn't give a f*ck about others and just be myself